Friday, June 25, 2010

High Heels & Shoe Bites


I was always under an impression that I can’t walk in high heels.. even stepping into a pair of them would get me into the fear of breaking my ankles, until that day when I got drunk & danced in them!! Ofcors I don’t have any re-collection of it myself.. if not for my friends & photographs of the event.. I would have never known!
So many times, while learning how to cycle, I’ve looked ahead at an obstacle and told myself.. “I’ll go left.. I don’t wanna bump into that!” ..and w-o-ah! I go b-a-n-ging into that in the next second!! Frustrated.. I never cycled again in my life!
I’ve been reading a lot of philosophy lately.. but this piece is absolutely from my experiences.. its very important to control your mind for your body and not against it. It’s not just positive or negative thinking that can get you there. Would say I am blessed with the power of thinking.. a lot of us are.. but exactly how many of us can control our mind? A rare few? Havn’t met anyone yet.
It’s not easy to fight against the deepest fears, especially when you don’t even know the cause for them. It could be from the past you never knew you had. an event that might have nudged you subconsciously at some point of time.
I wake up every morning to different emotions.. sometimes am euphoric because it’s a bright and sunny day.. other times its a strange sensation of hollowness & depression that grips me.. As one of my friend also mentioned sometime back.. I tell myself, “I choose to be happy!!” Does that help? Not really.. As the day passes, these bouts of highs & lows keep getting back because we let it be. Not sure what else can be done.. I’ve been urged to stabilize my mind for the sake of my well being. Sometimes thinking negatively when required, sometimes seeing things positively.. telling myself constantly.. happy or unhappy.. I want to be healthy.. physically & mentally. Because happiness and depression is part of living.. but its important to be able to remain stable to deal with all the emotions. Does that drive some of the readers?

PS. I still avoid high heels. The fight is on! :)